It's been a while since I've been back here blogging, and a lot has happened since then. Rereading all these posts, sometimes you realize what you were thinking at the time wasn't really a big deal. The things you worry about, months later, don't really mean anything. But of course, it's always easier to have perspective in retrospect..

I've been finding myself daydreaming a lot. On bart, on the shuttle, at work. About what I can't exactly say. Just something different.

I've been having this reoccurring image in my mind: wandering through the streets of an unknown city at night, lights glimmering all around me, all sorts of different people, food stands, skyscrapers and buildings. Hopefully it will happen soon.

2 more weeks until the end of my job. I've made many friends here, experienced things both good and bad, and it's definitely something I'll carry on with me throughout my years. The job ends but life goes on. I know we'll keep in touch.

What a melancholy post.

cordially

at mindy's request.


To be honest, the past few months have not exactly been a good experience for me. I’ve always worked closely with the associate site manager, and the duties and responsibilities for that role does not exactly appeal to me (unless there’s an expansion in the responsibilities and decisionmaking). The ability to make decisions seems to solely depend on higher up merchants, which I feel impedes our ability to do our jobs. With so many different areas working together, there hasn’t been much negotiation with what each team feels is their priorities (but of course, I know we’re here to protect the bottom line…) This has been something I’ve communicated throughout this site redesign, but I know it’s not exactly something that can be changed. As for now, I’m ok with where I am, but I really appreciate your offer and concern.


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From: Peter
Sent: Tuesday, January 15, 2008 6:18 PM
To: Henry
Subject: RE: Associate Site Manager Position


any reason in particular?

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From: Henry
Sent: Tuesday, January 15, 2008 5:39 PM
To: Peter
Subject: Associate Site Manager Position

Hi Peter,

I appreciate your offer to put me in the running for the Associate Site Manager position, but I’d like to cordially decline.


Thank you,
Henry

i've resorted to eating liquid lunches at work now cuz it's so insanely busy.. thanks for always bringing me soup v =)

timing is everything. people say when something unexpected comes along, you should run with it and see where it takes you. but on the other hand, how far can you go into the unknown? would you rather not know what the possibilities are, or risk braving the potential of failure?

jaeiny says that happiness is something you can control. is that true?

sure, everything you experience is in your head, but that doesn't mean happiness is strictly a perception. you can be content with what you have or how you are, but is that fulfilling enough to get you through each day for the next 60 years? sometimes i feel like we'll never be able to find what we are looking for.. and who even knows what that is anyway?

we're so depressing. damn you jaeiny.

when do u realize that who u are now is not who u were in high school? i dont think u ever do.. to me, ill always be the same person. the stuttering, quiet kid who doesn't know how to talk to anyone. someone who fumbles his words and gets clammy hands. i guess my whole life i've been trying to become someone more outgoing and personable, but its hard doing something so different from ur personality.

alcohol sure helps though doesn't it?

"the only constant feature of all your dissatisfying relationships is you".

how depressingly true.